I went on a vacation last week... a much needed vacation. Paul and I went back to San Francisco for a 3rd time within a year and I have to say this will be the last time we vacation there. The next time we are in San Francisco we will have some keys to a italianate victorian flat with a big bay window that we call our own. It took some time but I really feel this is what I need in my life right now - a move that will put it all on the line and help me break free of these chains of my comfort zone.

Ever since I was about 10 years old I would beg my parents to take me to San Francisco. I would beg and ask and ask (with barely any results) to visit the city but they never would take me. The drive is only 45 minutes from where I grew up (San Jose, CA) but we would never go. I remember saying to myself that when I get older I'm going to live there. Then when the big move to Texas happened it was my one and only goal to get back to where I started from in NorCal. That never happened. So I met Paul and things have all just coasted through ever since. When I turned 25 a few years I told myself I was going to do big things for the next five years and do things that I thought I never could do. About two weeks after my birthday I told Paul "We're going to NYC for the very first time, I'll buy the tickets and we'll go in about a month." And I did. Next thing I applied to a university and attended until the money ran out. Cest la vie! I moved away from the comfort of my parent's house and Baytown over to the big bad-ass city of Houston. I wouldn't settle for random X neighborhood either. I moved to Montrose, close to downtown and center of culture, clubs, and tree lined streets. Its the village of Houston and very very desirable. So I got in and since then moved to a bigger better place with a deck and everything and am now living comfortably in a beautiful old home.

Not to mention 3 vacations to California and one to New Orleans in the past 9 months.

So things are good. The job is stressful but I found a job that you could definitely grow and possibly settle down with. Its a love-hate relationship that is pretty unhealthy. However the benefits are very grown up and the pay outs are very sweet. I guess thats what life is really like. So things aren't that bad, as crazy and fucked up it feels sometimes.

So back to what I was saying. I have always wanted to go to San Francisco routinely as a kid and even more so as a young adult. Being there these past three times has been quite the trip! Up and down the streets like a roller coaster and walking along a dreamy waterfront. The weather is hard, yet sweet. The people there are vastly different from the next and are fierce defenders from shit-talkers about their city. After all, its THE CITY. The little cable cars climb half-way to the stars and the fog chills the air. Thanks Mr. Bennett for those summarizations!

The fact of the matter is I dream big and San Francisco is a city who's foundation sits upon dreams and artistry. Inspiration abounds and if you could only see how wonderful it is you would feel it too. Its time for me to move back and live in my city by the bay. Texas has been good to me and it continues to provide a wealth of opportunity for thousands of people who move here every year. But, its just not me. I feel like a cactus in the rain forest. I wasn't designed to live here. And while I can fit in and drink up everything that comes to me I'm supposed to be back in California.

I would miss my Mom and Dad immensely and probably cry at night for them like a 4 year old for a while, but I said a few years back that I'm going to grant myself some wishes. I deserve it and I'm young enough to clean up if I mess up. If I were 40 we'd be having some problems!

So what is next? Well it has already been decided that we are going to start paying off our debts that we owe together and bring our credit score up. I've got lots of settlement offers from a few years now that I can use to negotiate these big honkin' debts off. I used to be stupid in my younger days and subconsciously thought, "It will never happen to me." Oh how wrong you were Jess! I know that it won't be a dramatic difference in Paul and I's scores but if we ever want a house here or anywhere it all starts with credit. We have the money to do it and for the life of me I'm not sure why we never even bothered cleaning up our credit. But, I said I would move if our debts (or the majority of them) were paid or settled I would move out west. I want a lot of things out of this life and the adult side of me is realizing it all starts with your good name. Cash doesn't solve everything! Like, duh.

So, no more vacations! At least for a little bit. We're alternating settlements between us. I'll settle and pay off one first and then we'll settle and pay off one of Paul's next. Relationships are a team effort and they weren't lying about that! All in all wish us luck. I know what you're thinking about San Francisco: ~*GHEY*~ but its truly an amazing place with some of the most forward thinking and innovative people on the planet.

The South has soured me and hopefully some good ocean air is what I need to cleanse my soul.


Little boxes, on the hillside. Little boxes made of ticky-tacky...

And by the way this is a porn vid - if you're thinking I wrote something move along! LOL!!

( Not for good girls or Christians! )

Why do poor people attend movies? How do they afford it? I went to see Sex and the City last night at the AMC Gulfpoint last night because the Angelika downtown was going to be too crowded and there was too many ghetto ass teenagers in the theater. Not to mention there were two 8 year old boys sitting by themselves in front of me with popcorn and soda and the whole nine yards. No parental accompaniment! People were texting through the movie, on their phones, it was just... a movie theater I guess.

On the whole though I loved SATC the movie. I thought it was a perfect season 7 with all the things you would expect to see in a typical SATC season. Its been four long years and I was so happy to finally see the end result. Yes, critics hate it but its about time that there was a movie out there that was purely fanatical and through all my medical problems right now it was just the thing.

For those of you who don't know I've been having a problem with constipation all week. I know its like OH NOS TMI!!!1!! But it is really painful and I have scaled way back on food and stopped drinking sodas to try and fix it. I just can't go... haven't really gone since Monday as far as I can remember. So pray for me! I can't take this pain very much longer!

And to top it off I have a vacation on Wednesday night that we spent a lot of money on and if I can't go I will be very upset because I've been planning and looking forward to this trip for just over 6 months!!

The funniest thing I heard all night was that if you buy a Roomba vacuum cleaner the worst part about it is finding the thing after its done cleaning. Sometimes it hides under beds and couches and after its ran its course you have to get on your hands and knees and hunt for the little booger! LOL!

I don't know - its the little things I guess.

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ooh and the new Gavin DeGraw CD came out today!! So excited!

Hey everyone. Thanks for not commenting on my last blog. No sarcasm here -- just venting -- things are a little crazy in my life right now and I can only handle it so well for so long.

Everywhere I look I say some sort of chaos. While I can't control certain chaos there are a lot of missed opportunities that seem to drive me over the edge just a little bit at a time. For example, tonight I gathered up all the laundry that we own together and sorted it into clean - not so clean - I know its not clean - and miscellaneous crap that we're never going to wear even if we did lose all the weight. After putting a load in the washer and dryer I made me a big cup of ice water and came to relax on the computer a little bit before getting another load of clothes in the dryer tonight. The original plan was to get to bed by 10:30 so I can join Paul in the morning for his ritual gym routine but when getting my clothes together I noticed that all of his clothes are everywhere but not a stitch of mine. So thus began operation laundry.

Today I can share some good news. As you all may or may not know I am traveling in exactly 31 days back to California for my birthday. For my birthday I wanted to be far away from my life as possible and in a convertible at the beach like I've always wanted and so we're going to make it happen. As you may know convertibles are super duper expensive to rent and own so I made a reservation on a convertible for $393.00 back in January. I got a cheapy motel room as well for about $358.00 for the four nights we're staying there. Today, something told me to go online and see what other cars I could find for much less that I could possibly be happy with and found that the same car rental company is not advertising a convertible special on their website! I got the same convertible for the same time with unlimited miles for $203.00 total today on the internet!! So I'm saving $190.00 on the car and I couldn't be more excited!

Also, that motel room... I found out through the motel's website (and not the meta-search sites like hotel.com and kayak) that I could get the same deal for $270 total versus the $358.00 I was getting on the meta-sites! So I'm saving some major money there too!! So the trip is off to a great start at a profit of $300 dollars give or take so we're happy about that!

Well I'm going to get the laundry in the dryer and start to wind down before I get some rest. Another week of work ahead. I hate that pit in my stomach that I get when I think about it. You would think after a year I would've gotten over it by now. :-(

For just one day I wish I could take the weight of hate off of my chest and put it up on a heavy duty shelf. I promise I would return to it after 24 hours and harness it back on for the rest of my life as intended. If only it were that easy, right? For all the beautiful things this world has to offer - sunsets and sunrises, wildflowers, symmetry in seashells and babies discovering the world for the first time with their big blue gray eyes - still the average person is left with all the negative realisms of the world and I don't think its fair.

There is supposed to be this heaven and hell that we all strive to achieve and avoid all at once. Even the people who don't believe in Christianity still live their life for the good to obtain some kind of reward in the afterlife. Its like we're all working so hard to achieve that greater good in the end while missing out of the now. I'm 26, have a 401k that takes out way too much and have this pressure from my Investment company to get in on a roth IRA. INVEST INVEST INVEST they tell you. NOW IS THE TIME TO INVEST FOR YOUR FUTURE!

No, I don't want to worry when I'm old and useless about money or silly things like where my next meal is going to come from or am I really too old to be driving still. I don't want to be that old man calling up every bill he owes asking for an extension to pay with a promise of social security check that is way too small and is way too rationed. So I INVEST and pour money into this account that is growing rapidly and in the mean time my pitiful salary is siphoned 4 ways for the future and I am making a quarter less than I was as a temp. Work harder and you'll be rewarded in the afterlife! But what about the mean time when every fucking check I goes entirely to my portion of the bills?

I really don't have to invest in anything at this point. But, its the fear that if this place I serve my time to is really the place where I'm going to finish out my days doing useless tasks for useless people and I'm not investing into a savings of some sort is what is scaring me. I spent the first 20 years worrying about heaven and now I'm worrying about retirement. All the while people this process is putting me through hell and makes me feel like I should just pack it all up and start living out my dreams of living city to city.

But pump those brakes!

Student loan debt? Yeah I got that! And quite a bit too. I have so much in fact I'm not even sure I can tell you exactly how much I have. When you live paycheck to paycheck and most of the time less than that the student loan sharks make their case pretty clear and boy oh boy do they know they got game. They are the herpes infection on my dreams and the responsible me is saying the only fucking you'll ever get is the one that you do to yourself with all these student loans. What the HELL was I thinking? Thats the point - I wasn't. The credit industry knows it and now I'm trapped in a job, making $14 an hour with a great savings plan and no where else to go but adulthood.

I've always had this dream of living in San Francisco. Yes, its one of those silly boyhood type dreams that probably won't come into fruition because life happens and you find yourself stuck somewhere you never thought you would be. I, on the other hand have no children, no real commitments, just bad debt. And lots of it. With real estate prices in the troposphere the American dream is and will probably always be just that - a dream. Although its easy to say "You'll get out of debt if you really work at it," its not all that simple. And I think everyone realizes that when you have a place to pay for, along with food, gas, bills, and all kinds of other things that we "need" in our lives.

For just one day I would like to wake up and not have that feeling of anguish turning my stomach at the thought of having to go to a job that I absolutely hate so I can scrape by and pay the least on the things that bond me to a grim reality that I throw a blanket over with my blessed optimism. The two worlds are fighting against me, both heaven and hell. Its a shame that my sins (or immaturity) thrust me into a world that I can no longer afford to live comfortably. My birthday is a month away and for approximately four seconds before I blow my candles out I will imagine all of the things that my heart is crying for and I will transport to this place, bursting with bright white and everything will feel so good. And with the force of a breath and a burst of a bubble this crazy reality backdrop will fall around me and the world will become once again sepia toned and tough.

If only life could be fixed with the click of some ruby mary janes and the help of some singing dancing metaphores.

If you've been interested in seeing my apartment, I finally have some pictures of it up. Connie, my sister in law, cleaned my house today and it looks BEAUTIFUL! So here it is,

My living room, looking from the dining room.


My living room, looking from the entrance.

sorry its a little blurry!

My couch, all made up. I love how the red accents look against the blue walls.


Looking into the dining room towards the kitchen. Yes there is a broken lamp there! I haven't taken it to the lamp store!


A look into the hallway from the dining room. The floors look against the wall. I know I'm obsessed with my walls but the blue color is the best thing about this place.


A view from the kitchen -- the kitchen is a mess and frankly, out of date. So it'll be featured another time.


Anyway, the other rooms will be featured at another time! :0)

A friend of mine (well, more like local celebrity who knows of me) wrote this blog on his myspace the other day and well, it got me to thinking. I know most of you on here are pretty progressive people who aren't klansmen in Diesel clothing. When I read this, part of me starting thinking about things more and I want to learn more about the immigration problem in this country. Is it even really a problem? I watched this movie last night called La Misma Luna or Under the Same Moon in which this 9 year old boy leaves Mexico on his own to join his mother in the United States who hasn't seen him in four years. Its very scary and very sad at the same time. You should check it out because it'll have you in tears at the very end. Anyway, here is Todd's blog ( cut here for your enjoyment )

Comments are welcome. :-)

and congratulations Andrew on your very first car! So proud!

My life is utterly boring. Be it blessed, I just don't see any contrast in what I do day to day. Its like I get up, routinely rush to get to work and when I come home its the same ol' thing every night. I'm just sick of it! I know growin up means growin old too but Jesus I'm just not ready to do that yet!

I finally got my permanent position at my company and am now in the wonderful world of corporate America. My company is awesome when it comes to benefits and 401k, perks and the like. For me though, its the job I have a problem with. I know I rant and rave on here about that like, ALL the time so I won't do it THIS time. I just finally have reached my boiling point and now its too late to turn back time. Being permanent means either you have a promising career or a miserable job. I'm working on getting out of having the miserable job and on to the promising career, but there just isn't enough time in the day!

With all the stress and anger that I've been going through for the past, oh let's say 9 months I finally had a nervous breakdown the other day. My friend Fernando had been reading "The Secret" at his desk and was telling me about it and how positive it is. Whenever The Secret was featured on Oprah I always missed it **purposely** because it seemed like another one of those self-help gimmicks she's always hocking. He was telling me about it and he felt like maybe, just maybe I should be let in on the secret. He boot-legged me a DVD and I brought it home. It took me about 2 weeks to finally get the nerve to watch it and amazingly I was so surprised at how the law of attraction works. It works for me all the time and now I feel like some young Jedi trying to master my universe with the powers of attraction.

If you're not familiar with the Secret it works something like this. People criticize it but for me its always worked for me and now I'm trying to figure out how to use "The Force" to get what I want out of life. Now, I haven't been sitting around my couch focusing on a BMW and expect one to show up in my drive way later today. But there have been way too many coincidences in my life that I could never really put a label on until I watched the DVD. Call me crazy but I actually believe in it.

So where am I going with this? Yesterday after having a very low day I came home and watched the Secret. I said to myself "Okay, I'm going to only focus on the positive things in my life and the things that I love and things that I want to be doing." In doing so, my calls were less hellacious and the people were not as fucking stupid as they usually are. So by opening up my mind to the possibility of other things the level of demonic people was dramatically lower than my day to day work load. When I find a penny on the floor I pick it up and put it in my pocket. Since I started doing that last year money hasn't been a problem for me. Did I mention I'm going back to California in June for my birthday? We're getting a convertible. Just as I imagined over and over again earlier this year. Too many things are crazy around me to not be true so I like I said before, am in Jedi training for this Law of Attraction.

I should be sleeping right now but I'm up writing on the internet. I am driving up to Dallas today to help a friend move. I don't know what the hell there is to do there besides EAT. I'm catching the grayhound back to Houston first thing in the morning so I can relax and have a day off before its back to the 5 day prison sentence. See that? See what I just did? I just told the universe that work was like a prison sentence. And it feels just like that all the time. Maybe if I think to myself that I am blessed to even have a job in this screwed up economy this week might go by a little better. Anyhow I should be getting some rest. I'm sweating so bad in here because we refuse to use the A/C this time of year. Did you know that my electric bill for February was only $45 bucks? And our gas bill was $25. We froze our asses off that whole month but instead of paying hundreds of dollars to keep warm we saved so much more money by suffering. Amen.

Ok, I'm rambling again. My life doesn't seem so boring right now when you write it all out. The more I see it, I say its more interesting than anything. When I win the lottery y'all I'm buying each of you The Secret book! LOL! Ok you must think I'm insane or stupid or whatever but thats ok. I have it all, I just have to find it, dust it off and show it to the rest of the world.

The delegate system sucks.

Went to the caucus and didn't complete it.

Hope and Faith doesn't pay the bills.

Voters in Republican Voting lines = 0

(see above) Priceless!

For all the overdraft fees I get from Bank of America you think their CEO's would invite me out to a luncheon with their big ass bonuses I get them every year.

First thing first --- Congratulations to the NY Giants on their Super Bowl win!! Eli, great job. I didn't watch the Super Bowl until the last 10 minutes, as God intended. Ironically it was the most exciting part of the game! Now if only the Houston Texans can get their shit together and win us something... put us on the map for GOOD THINGS!

Today is super-Tuesday. I didn't even know it was today until I got home from work and heard that Hillary was winning all those states. What a surprise. I make it a point not to argue about politics on here because frankly, I don't really like to wear my opinions on my sleeve like that. Politics can bring the ugly out of people and I'm happy and content with my friends, both real life and online. But my endorsement is for Hillary Clinton. I think she's got it together and my ultimate want is a Clinton/Obama ticket. We can keep our fingers crossed can't we? I'm excited that McCain is doing so well because I really feel he will be the key to the democrats coming back into power and fixing up all the shit problems that the Republicans created all these years passed. In my heart of hearts I know that a Clinton - McCain election will definitely bring great change to this country. So I'm hoping that Mitt Romney doesn't make it past Zion and Huckabee scares rational people away and its Mrs. Clinton and the ol' stegasaurus.

But that is my two cents.

I'm moving, people. Yes, its true! I'm moving across the street to another apartment. Its a much larger apartment in a much nicer building! Pictures will be coming soon -- Its a 2 bed 1930 flat. 1200 sq ft and has 22 windows in it. Can you believe it?? Hardwood floors and a real kitchen, $150 bucks more a month, its more than I can ask for. Can't wait so excited!

Oh God. Lou Dobbs is on tv right now bitching about the great wall of mexico again. I'm gonna go and see what the hell is going on tonight. Y'all take care now!

For most of my life I have been a pretty pessimistic person. I almost never had anything nice to say, nor have any faith in dreams. I would roll my eyes and pity the person who dared to dream or achieve goals. I always thought ~*scoff*~ what a pathetic waste of your short life on earth. Here on planet Earth I (thought) I knew who had it and who didn't. And while it was good fun and I was pretty popular for being so mean. Fast forward to now and suddenly I realized it didn't get me where I thought I would be.

You see, I dared to dream those silly thoughts too. I wanted to have so much out of this life -- yet spent so much of my time hating everyone else. I always felt this sense of entitlement to the future. Boy, was I totally wrong.

Out here in the real world we all have to work very hard. There are few people out of the billions in this world who have it all from sunrise to sunset. People like Paris Hilton, and Nicole Richey. Those two I single out because they were in that show The Simple Life. When they lived in Arkansas it was the absolute best because the people that they lived with didn't really have everything laid out for them on a day to day basis. And while it was fun to laugh at those two dim-wits (here I go with the negativity) I have to say that watching them EWWW and THATS HOT through it all made me realize my place in the world. I am not those two and how dare I be quick to judge them?

Now, I'm not saying I am not judgmental and evil , even on occasion. I am still very bad. But overall I try to see the good in this world and hope for the best in every body. Finding some peace in my life has really broadened my horizons in terms of my job and my living situation. I love that my family is so loving and I have a partner who thinks the world of me. There are a lot of times when I just want to break down and complain and roar with anger about how things are going down but I have stopped myself for the most part and am trying my best every day to just be... me.

I haven't felt genuinely happy for anyone at all for, like, ever. But more and more I am finding that happiness for people and I have to say its pretty neat! And, I find that peace of mind knowing that my life could be totally worse than it is. When it feels like the whole place is caving in on me I remember that there are far worse places in this world to live in and and situations could be worse... I could be a Muslim woman in the middle east... I couldn't think of a worse fate at this point (damn this pessimism!).

When the going gets tough, remember that there are many other people out there that would trade with you in a heart beat. As I age more and get a little gray, I've realized that there is such a thing as love, hope and real faith out there in the universe. All of the things that I used to abhor I now see in a whole new perspective.

Today when I was at work I had such a rotten, shitty day. I truly did. They are becoming more frequent. I'm snapping at customers and its becoming a noticeable problem. But, when I come home I'm completely different and don't bring up anything that happens at work because it no longer matters once I step foot on to the street and into my car. I come home and share the love with Paul and sleep without any of the drama that happens in the mine-fields of customer service call centers. As much as I want to erupt in frustration every day I say a little prayer and pray that God instills patience in me on an hourly level. I'm like a parking meter: I only go so far before I need another quarter to keep the meter running.

If this blog sounds confusing just know that things are good in my life. I have a nice place to live. I have family and friends that love me. I have a cute cell phone (lol!). But most importantly I have humility and that my friends, as Martha would say, "Is a Good Thing."

God, how has this work week been drawn out long enough? Has your week felt long like mine has? And its only Thursday! I went to Starbucks this morning and got a big ol' pick me up to keep me through the day. Not a whole lot going on... just working too much and not getting enough sleep. I wish I could take a vacation every 3 months. Wouldn't that be nice?

Today when I woke up there was a lot of commotion on our front deck. I looked out the window and saw a team of guys tearing it all down so we have full exposure to the street now. I feel so exposed!! Our property manager finally must've got the green light to tear it down because the thing is completely rotting out. My neighbor upstairs was laughing so loud. There must've been one of the men up there. She flirts like crazy. Damn scorpios! Anyway, our deck is gone and so is our privacy.

And for another daily gripe, Houston should change its name to Dog-Shit City. I'm so sick and tired of walking over lumps of steaming dog shit all over our sidewalks on the way to work every day. Its so disgusting and smelly. You can't walk on any of the sidewalks without having a road block of shit there. If you walk around it on someone's lawn chances are you're going to really step on shit there too. Your best bet is to walk on the street with the traffic because at least the streets are busy enough for a dog to stay off of. UGH! Hate hate HATE dogs.

So here I am at work. Yesterday was so slow it was almost magical. Today I have a feeling we're going to be off the wall busy since the holiday is over. People just don't understand that in the winter, you use your heater and your bill is going to sky rocket just like the summer time! Almost all of the calls I get are about "WHY MY BILL SO HIGH?" Um, yeah betch -- its because YOU USED IT! Its hard not to get irate OUT LOUD but man, some people! Anyway, gotta get going to work. Hope everyone has a great day! Ciao!

Hey everyone,

Just found out through my property manager that he leased out that apartment the same day to someone who looked at the apartment before us. Since it was a shoe-in I had my hopes all up, but now it appears that its not going to happen. I'm not mad, not upset, I'm just blank about it. Paul is upset but I think he's more upset that I might be upset. Its a complicated thing. LOL!

So we're not moving. Its alright, our apartment is just fine. Its cheaper and has a better view so like Mary Mary says everythings just fine fine fine fine fine.

Anyway, hopefully something will open up to us and we'll have a better place to choose from. Like I told Paul, When God takes something from your grasp he is merely opening your hands to receive something better.

Its hard to believe its already 2008! For all that its worth I'm happy that you all come by and read my blog. 2007 was a really good year and I'm so excited that this year will hopefully be even better. I've got a lot of things I want to this year that I couldn't do last year so hopefully I'll be keeping up with this blog and doing more picture posts! :-)

Last year I got this amazing apartment in Neartown, and unfortunately it's outgrown Paul and I. I mean, for the year we were happy living all close quarters and all, but a few months ago I was getting restless and wanting more space. Something with more room and some more functional things we need like a kitchen and washer and dryer. I went out to the west-side and found a really great apartment about $25 more and a whole hell of a lot more space than we do here, but it was 18 miles away from my job and I don't have a car. Not functional! There is this place behind us here that is another four plex and has all the charm of this building, except its much more maintained than this one. If it weren't for a fallen tree we wouldn't have ever known about it.

Back in May of 07 there was a big tree that fell between our property and the one behind us. When it tore the fence down our property manager came over to inspect the damage and we got to talking. We were telling them that we wanted to find a two bedroom if they had one and she told us about the place behind us. She said our deposit would transfer over without problems and it was a one and a half bedroom. We went over there to check it out and then found that it was much larger and cuter! Also it was $225 more than what we're paying here. That was too much for us and we were like, um no. We'll stay where we're at. Months later we reconsidered and now the $225 is not sounding like a whole lot. Actually, the property manager knocked it down to $200 more so thats cool news for us!!

Today Paul and I walked over there and I took some pictures. My camera is an SLR camera so it takes shots that are pretty close to what the naked eye sees. So a lot of pictures are close up and I'm sorry about that - the important thing is that I have pictures and lots of them! I posted them on here to see if you like the new place. We've pretty much decided on taking it! We emailed the property manager today and hopefully we'll be in February 1st. So yay!!! Here is the apartment below, hope you all are doing great!

( lots and lots of pictures ahead )

I've always maintained I was 52% gay!

A friend of mine on the next computer to me is looking at craigslist strictly platonic section. There is this woman on there lookin for gay guy friends. Apparently she is missing her fruit flys from California and is finding no fags in Texas to stroke her ego. She doesn't get along with women, and she's married to a rather dull male. So she's begging on the off-chance that a gay guy is cruising the W4M platonic section looking for another doll to play with. She misses the gays telling her how "Fabulous" she is.

Now I don't know about you, but no one except Carson Kressly says Fabulous anymore. At least the gays I know. This poor woman is probably one of those overweight red hat women who run around like that woman on Sex and the City that Samantha enlisted to join her at Samba.

Fabulous W4(gay)M = get a life!!